Lamentations 3:31-32(NASB)
     "For the Lord will not reject forever, For if He causes grief, then He will have compassion according to His abundant lovingkindness."


     I never knew God causes grief. I thought He just allows bad things to happen, not cause them. Why? He is our Father and we are His children. If He has lovingkindness, why would he cause grief towards His children? Do I cause grief toward Trinity? 
     I have dealt with a lot of grief lately. The loss of my unborn child is a grief I would not wish upon anyone. I feel grief is a side effect to an event that occurs, how my response is. So God caused my miscarriage knowing the grief it would bring on me. Where is his compassion? He knows the pain of loosing a child, why would He have us feel that horrible pain? These are questions I may never get answers to, which in itself is very frustrating.
     When He causes grief, where is this abundant lovingkindness? Well I have come to the conclusion that just as I teach Trinity, she doesn't always like the lesson to be taught, but it is from my lovingkindness that I have for her, that I teach her these life's lessons. In turn, it may cause her grief. I feel this verse is a little misleading, but if you view it as a Father/child relationship, it makes much more sense.
     My mom use to tell me, after I got in trouble, "it hurts me more then it hurts you." As a parent, I can totally get behind that now. So all the grief I endure, my Father in heaven endures it even more.